The Road to Darkness

It happens whenever you walk into a room where I am, and it happens so quick I feel sick everytime. I lost myself inside and my control over my body. I shake and shake, it is like I have had enough of coffee. I lost the game and you win the prize.

I distance myself from any good things, still there’s something wrong. The Flashbacks keeps coming and I hate that. Life is hard and I know it, the question is: Do I deserve it? I keep asking it over and over. Where are the good things I need and where’s the point of all of this misery? The path I use to control I have lost, ain’t no perfect anymore. The turnings and backwards no options, the only end I see is Darkness. The sins and pins are returning, the meaning of this I don’t see. I surrender…

I know I’ve hurt your feelings and you’ve hurt mine. That doesn’t mean you have to keep on, you know I’ve stopped it long time ago. Why do you still fight me? I always try to lie to you, but the truth is I love you more than anything. It’s a shame.

The Road to Darkness is going to be long and hard, the future is not bright and wonderful. The Gods have cursed me, never to find happiness again, never to see the heart of this soul and my veins darkened. The minute seems a long time passed, every second feels eternity. I don’t think I can’t hold on anymore.

“Death, Pain
Veins, Dark
Cross burning
Hold on tight

Soul reaping
No light can defeat
I wish I never here
Always alone

Heart broken, Pieces
No secret life
Lust gone for good
Still I’m sad”

The tears are mine to cry, never meant to be yours to dry.
Don’t you damn and damn try, just let me burn and burn.
I here by let me bleed, cursed I meant to keep.
Blood is the only one I need, just don’t be too mean.
I have nothing to gain, never meant to darken my vein.
Nothing I do removes the stain, black river and Elune help me.

And I’m sure, we both still love her.

Sincerely
Mario Lyberth

0 o’clock

What will 0 o’clock mean to you? Midnight or Noon? How would our time plan look like? I don’t really know…

The numbers we see everyday are sometimes difficult to understand, because I ask often myself why theese specific numbers? Will there ever be different numbers in the future? So many questions still unanswered, walking around my consciousness and bothering me everytime. If one day becomes 23 hours, it wouldn’t even matter, ‘cause that is our real natural day and we wouldn’t have headaches for once. So it would be 6 o’clock the sun rises from the East not 5 o’clock and that is wrong according to my calculations. We see six as a positive number without thinking it through, and five, well, it’s different and negative. However, we have managed to form it into something better, for example, the fives, Jackson Five, Five boys meaning boybands and 5 as my lucky number. Maybe it is because the sun creates shining memories that specific time, which should be 6 according to my timeplan and shine a ligh on us…

I have enough of this! You’ll never see me again, so disgusting you are. No more entering my room and no more talking from me. I belong in another world, world of lust, where I am once this powerful man. You have to know that you have never satisfy me, I’ve tried…

For me it’s 0 o’clock when I say Pandora for the first time. The time stops and I see your smile so beautiful I slipped into the alternate reality. Now I am all depressed, I think of something brilliant. If I become president, I’ll declare a war with you!!! You turn me into a monster…

Teles and Aglaope, Lust and Pure.
Aglaophonos and Mors Mortis, Light and Darkness.
I’ve seen you around my beautiful Euryale.
You’ve always known my mortality and endureness.
Let the light show us the path to intimacy,
so we lest forget the past and the future.
Set the burning flame into dust and dure.

Sincerely
Mario Lyberth

Cold Eyes

The world isn’t perfet, life is hard and yes, it is frustrating. Well, if the world was perfect, we would life our lives awfully and yes, we wouldn’t find happiness in that perfect little world ‘cause we wouldn’t know about it.

The wind blows my mind and my words are getting shorter. Cold air I feel. Someone close by me disturbing me. My room is dark and it’s hard to notice that someone is near by. My room is cold because I have forgotten to turn up the radiator. Suddenly behind my curtains I see those eyes, displeased and full of pain, staring at me, I freeze…

“Give us back Stalin and Hitler, give us back Caesar and Xerxes, so we can make this world a better place. Kaassassuk and Anngannguujunnguaq will not be mentioned, so disappointing. Ajorsaqaat!”

Too much coffee gives me dizzyness and my opinions flip around, which makes me see the other side of the world. I smile when I’m angry, I laugh when I’m cynical and I lie when I’m truthfull. A ghost is you, hard to find and hard to see. You are my unique heart, never to disappear inside. Ring the bells with your naked hands, forget your perfect offering. Release the contract, set your eyes on fire and burn my body. Forget democrazy, forget the freedom and hail to slavery. It’s not illegal when you’re the president, even if it is murder. Be the bloodlust, you’ll survive. Just life Darwin said…

My cold eyes makes me happier.

Sincerely
Mario Lyberth

Stain

Every man has a flaw which makes him unique from the rest. There’s a maze inside the soul which sometimes makes him do the dirty stupid little things which incedently drives the woman mad. There’s no surprises at all.

Being addicted to coffee and cigarette makes me little different, however many are. Me being different than the rest is, I am psychologically different, my emotions are critical to others.Especially when I am arused by alcohol.. Which make me special. There’s a collision between me and women, sometimes it can be dangerous to me. You know women and their male friends, especially when those males are in fact in love with the woman. The funny part is, the woman doesn’t know that. They often don’t. This man is like a hound or Cerberus guarding her and protecting her reputation. It’s too risky.

Whoever I am or whoever I will become doesn’t really matter. Because it is our positive or negative behaviours that creates this illusional life, which means we have the control. Many of us haven’t figure it out, yet. This is the stain I can’t remove, just like a dark colour in my clothes. I’ve tried so many times to simply remove it, still I can’t figure out my way to the door. The dust blinds my eyes so I can’t see. SOmetimes I am being stopped by this wall so high, I can’t even climb it. I hear Pandoras laugther in this small room, it scares me. I need your help, Selene, show me the way and light my path.

Greed is good.

Sincerely
Mario Lyberth

First of Everything

Rounding up, collecting information from the brain. Wondering how the things have gone if I knew what will happen. I know you probably thinking the same thing, you would have done the right thing…

I was not quite old when I first saw you. We were just little kids, going to the same school. Following the road to our friendship, never thinking about the closeness we had for eachother… Then came the Turn.

You see, I was this teenager who loves to play with whatever videogames my parents gave me and especially with my dearest and loving guitar. For Aphrodites eyes, I was nobody. That nobody who don’t know anything about lust. The world I was in has never seen closeness and never felt intimacy of a woman. My desires were different before you touched me. How could I be so careless?

For me, you are more than a woman. You introduce me to this world of greed, anger, lust, love, jealousy and difficulties. This life I love. Deep down my heart, I’ll love you and will often think about you. You let me see how beautiful Aphrodite really is, and her love for me. Lust is all I need.

This is the first of Everything and I love it. Never has been too great for me, even though my fourth love was amazing your love for me isn’t the same. Watching this movie together, closing in on the night, old stars watching us and smile upon us made the glory disappear and letting us do the things I didn’t even knew. Slowly closing, lips dry, later touched and the intimacy coming. The southern girls don’t even come to my mind.

This memory is never to be deleted.

Sincerely
Mario Lyberth 

Life Circle and Devour

When we settle our camp, we can build anything that comes to our minds. Build an army and expand your land, so you can build an empire of nations. Kill anyone who do not obey and follow you, and find someone you fully trust as your side partner. Maybe you’ll promote him to your general. In able to build up, you’ll need security and stragety. Just like Great Wars, Kings’ Battle of Nations, Heroes against Heroes and soldiers against soldiers. Life’s unfair…

Fan of knives, flying in a circle and waves, killing all in their way. With a blink of an eye, a Warden disappears again after killing many of my comrades. Marith Ledema, our magician, creates an icy rain. Sharp as knives killing my enemies like rats, no second thoughts. The archers are fierce, making us stronger once again. The siege is won, after loosing too many of my comrades we let them suffer.

The dead rises, skeletons searching vengeance of the living. The demon gates open, sending a vast army of the dead. No mere human can destroy. Retreat is our only option.

When someone dies, a child is born again through someone else. That usually how life works, a soul is never to see Heaven ‘cause it’s forbidden. Heaven is falling, new world is coming to us. Earth will fall someday and the signs are already beginning to show. Heat go and come, surprisingly developing fast. One day all will mealt away, giving our planet Eden. Rest is not necessary, sea will cover the rest, giving us our own one nation, one race and one country. Paradise on Earth, where everyone rest easy and no soul is hurting, no hunger and no armageddon.

When the polar ice is no longer, the high lands will control the rest. The white part gone green is considered chaos on Earth, many will die while the smart ones survived. Evolution will begin, developing us into super humans with great abilities, some powerful, some weak. The greater ones will begin to force other and war begins. Everything starts from the beginning, The Hunt…

Life Circle and Devour…

Sincerely
Mario Lyberth

Careless Creature

Firm, so firm your body is. Damn, I’ve made a mistake. You know, Aphrodite, you have promised me one thing. Never to let yourself be vulneralbe to your ex-girlfriend. The lust was amazing, still I needed to do it on other girls. I’ve prayed to you many times, why still punish me with this?

In different days I spend daydreaming about the ideal world. Where the myths are true, and where men are the careless creatures. Like myself, I am the unforgivalbe. Destroyed my humanity within, seeing my chimera infront. The nemean lion behind me with it’s powerful roar destroying my senses. Never to rest at night again, never to shine upon you. I hunt at night to please you Aphrodite, to seduce you Medusa. And you all-seeing God, Zeus, I wanted your love for me. To grant me and hear my plea. But you are not listening…

Sincerely
Mario Lyberth