It happens whenever you walk into a room where I am, and it happens so quick I feel sick everytime. I lost myself inside and my control over my body. I shake and shake, it is like I have had enough of coffee. I lost the game and you win the prize.
I distance myself from any good things, still there’s something wrong. The Flashbacks keeps coming and I hate that. Life is hard and I know it, the question is: Do I deserve it? I keep asking it over and over. Where are the good things I need and where’s the point of all of this misery? The path I use to control I have lost, ain’t no perfect anymore. The turnings and backwards no options, the only end I see is Darkness. The sins and pins are returning, the meaning of this I don’t see. I surrender…
I know I’ve hurt your feelings and you’ve hurt mine. That doesn’t mean you have to keep on, you know I’ve stopped it long time ago. Why do you still fight me? I always try to lie to you, but the truth is I love you more than anything. It’s a shame.
The Road to Darkness is going to be long and hard, the future is not bright and wonderful. The Gods have cursed me, never to find happiness again, never to see the heart of this soul and my veins darkened. The minute seems a long time passed, every second feels eternity. I don’t think I can’t hold on anymore.
Hold on tight
No light can defeat
I wish I never here
Heart broken, Pieces
No secret life
Lust gone for good
Still I’m sad”
The tears are mine to cry, never meant to be yours to dry.
Don’t you damn and damn try, just let me burn and burn.
I here by let me bleed, cursed I meant to keep.
Blood is the only one I need, just don’t be too mean.
I have nothing to gain, never meant to darken my vein.
Nothing I do removes the stain, black river and Elune help me.
And I’m sure, we both still love her.